A year ago this week…

Keeping a big secret on Christmas morning 2008

A year ago this week I found out I was pregnant. It was the strangest, scariest and most emotional Christmas ever for me- as I hadn’t told anyone yet as it was SUPER DUPER early at Christmas. I found out when I was just 5 weeks and 1 day along- and within those first two months I dropped 10 pounds from nausea and nerves- not knowing what to expect and being up all night wondering how my life would change.

When I look at Christmas pictures from last year, I can see how tired we both were. My parents thought something was “wrong” with me but couldn’t pinpoint it. I wasn’t drinking wine as much as I usually did. I wasn’t sneaking out for cigarettes as much as I previously did, and I was asleep much earlier than I normally would be at Christmas time. They had no idea I was pregnant- I think they thought it was cancer or something.

For the record, those pants fit again. Hooray!

Looking back at that Christmas, being so afraid and nervous about something so huge and life altering- and NOT sharing it immediately with my family, was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I’ve never felt so alone and scared before and when I finally did tell them all, it was as if a thousand pounds had been lifted off of my chest and I was able to breathe and handle the situation differently- which mainly meant bitch about how miserable I felt for nearly 10 months straight.

I remember looking around in our living room at all the people I love opening presents and trying to imagine a baby being there next (this) year.

Our Christmas spots.

Where would he or she sit? Where would we put all of his or her crap? How would a baby fit into this already full family?

And now I’m pretty sure that “the baby” is part of the reason everyone is so excited for Christmas. They want to see baby Simon- Gabe and I are just the “handlers”. The newest little Simon fits so nicely that everyone crowds around waiting for their chance to hold him, or watch to see what he does next. It’s quite hilarious. I also believe that this first little grandbaby has evoked a sense of “we’d like more please” from my parents. It’s like babies just ooze joy and become the glue that makes families stick closer and generations stay tighter.

Last year at this time I was the most scared I’ve ever been- worried about my life, how much I”d loved it before, how it would change and I didn’t know how I could adapt.

And I love my NEW life even more- in a completely different way. I’m so glad I waited this long to start a family- I’m proud of everything that’s happened in my life so far, and I love my new mini-family with Gabe and Simon so much. It’s all very very good here in the Simon Geig household, World of Warcraft, not nearly enough closet space and all.

I am so very thankful for all that I have. This baby has become my love-magnifier, making everything in my life that I previously loved even more exciting and lovable than it was before. Whether it’s watching my family gush over how beautiful he is, or watching the many videos that Gabe takes while he and Simon are home alone together playing, or the music in our lives that we cannot wait to share with the boy, the dancing, the food, the playing, all of the things in life worth sharing with others become so much more fun knowing we get to experience them with a brand new person all over again- like watching your favorite movie with someone who’s never seen it before.

I love this little life we’ve built and I can’t wait for every Christmas and stressful holiday that follows. I appreciate each moment and will remind myself to do so often.

My Bundle of Joy

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to my mom and dad

July 3, 1976- right?

July 3, 1976- right?

They met at Ohio State- and were set up on a “blind date” by their roommates- who were dating each other. They talk about being in college together- and how my mom ate pickles at the bar instead of drinking beer…to avoid unwanted calories.  My dad went on to Med School at OSU, and mom was going to move back home to get a teaching job. But at some point she asked my dad, “Aren’t you ever going to ask me to marry you?”

And (thankfully) he did.

They got married on July 3rd and honeymooned in Florida at Disney World. I’m sure they had no idea that their family would grow to include 4 kids…a couple of cats and a beautiful home. I think they always knew how lucky they were to have found each other.

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As their kid, I have to say that the best part of their relationship was always knowing that they loved each other first- and we came after that. We were a result of their love and their relationship, which they continue to nurture now- years and years later. It’s so nice to know that your parents are best friends, that they make each other laugh so hard that tears form in their eyes..

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..it’s a reassuring thing to know how much your parents love each other and how much fun they have together. It makes you believe in it and hold out for that kind of love with someone in your own life.

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So they are in Hilton Head right now- their favorite place to be…and I hope the weather is fabulous and they get lots of time to play tennis, walk, run, bike, eat, drink wine, and do all the things that they love to do with each other.  They deserve it.

I love you mom and dad- Happy Anniversary.

Here's to the happy couple!

Here's to the happy couple!